guilt
pain
over the loss (giving up?)
of something she considered vital
a post she'd simply assumed she'd take
that she would step into
destined
it was hers
she knew that
was supposed to be hers
was about her
and she'd let them down
she'd backed out (given up?)
(fear?) fear of failure
fear of being less than what was needed
paralyzing in a way
and it (perhaps) had


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1999, jessicarane