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Tuesday, November 30, 2004
7:59 PM
home was good.
but i'm home now too. which makes only so much sense, but i don't feel like explaining it.
saw the family, the friends, the city i know and love. madison's got a few little changes (mostly of the building variety), but that's the way of it. hair is longer or shorter and the apartments are all new. life continues in its regular rhythm, just as mine does. lots of us hate our jobs and are looking for others or looking at grad school. and it becomes easier to see who will still be there for me when i call and who won't. we ate meals and had drinks and laughed and i slept in a different place every night and i'm tired. but it's a good tired, from the safety of home and people i love and a place part of me still desperately wants to be.
so why do i feel so conflicted about it right now?
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
9:38 PM
i really need to post more.
i'll be home in 2 days (by home, i mean wisconsin). call me.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
9:07 PM
who knew
at this party that I
would walk in and I'd see you.
I guess now
we could just get drunk
yeah, that could be our excuse
you could slip
from out of nowhere
i could be there to catch your fall
we could laugh
at ourselves
and the writing that's on the wall
it's a narrow margin
just room enough for regret
in the inch and a half between
hey, how ya been?
and
can I kiss you yet?
so we talk, like
nervous neighbors over a tall fence
true love, but for the lack of providence
but I just got one more
thing to tell you
'cuz words are vitamins
and life is short
and I know when we get up
to the front office
We're gonna have to fill out
a full report
and the first question will be
what were you thinking?
and the next question will be
what did you say?
then they're gonna check to see
if the answers to one and two
matched up much
along the way
in the interest of poetry
and the cowboy movie
that's you and me
I'm back on the horse now
and I am riding
I am striding so effortlessly
what I mean is
it's late
much to late for us
and I'm fixing to go home
with just my conscious
and a bitter sense of irony
as my chaperone
true love, but for the lack of providence.
-a.d. "providence"
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
10:46 PM
dear president bush:
i will not lie. i am so devastated that you were re-elected that i cried once it sunk in. sobbed would probably be the more accurate description. i sincerely believe that the world would be infinitely better off if you had lost this race. that's right, not only do i think you're bad for america, but i think you're bad for the planet. i remember going to bed after the 2000 elections dejected but saying, "how much damage can he really do in four years?" and oh how wrong i was (and all the others like me were).
so when did i start hating you with white hot passion, you ask? probably within your first week of office, when you re-implemented the global gag rule (previously repealed by president clinton). i really don't get this perception among anti-abortion crusaders that by making it illegal/not talking about it/denying it funding, it will make it go away. the only thing outlawing abortion does is ensure that rich women can bribe their ob-gyn & poor women die in back alleys from dirty coat hanger style operations. the fact that you've chosen to attempt to force your world view on the rest of us (ignoring the constitutional issues inherent) is bad enough...the fact that you are punishing the poor and downtrodden women in other countries is horrifying. does someone actually come into the office and say "hey, let's make the lives of the third world even worse! we'll deny funding to any family planning or health clinic that would even think to MENTION abortion, let alone offer it. allowing millions of women and children to die will be fun!"
and gay marriage? what is your problem there? you've been bitching about the promiscuity of gay men for longer than i've been alive, but now that they want legal recognition for their long term, stable relationships, you're threatened. it's like the biggest whore in christendom trying to marry the king...oh wait, that happened a few centuries back and produced another one of those silly schisms with the catholic church and another group of protestant christians. Honestly, gays and lesbians getting married and growing old together is far less threatening than anne boleyn and henry the IIIV. the reformation and counter-reformation are not going to ensue. you'd think you'd be happy to have more couples to tax! of course i realize the real issue here is leviticus (and honestly, have you ever read anything so full of hate?) and the fact that you're assholes. oh wait, that's probably the alcohol talking. what's really the issue is the WORD. marriage is so entwined in religion and god, etc, that separating its Legal meaning from its Religious meaning can be difficult for some. so make Marriage within the church, and Civil Unions in the public realm. just changing the WORD seems to make so much difference when talking to people...
and then there's the war. not a surprise, i was kind of opposed to it. not that i thought that saddam was a good man, but didn't we have bigger problems (say, North Korea and the BATSHIT INSANE man who leads it) and an unfinished war against the taliban? i kind of resent having people i know and love putting their lives on the line so gwb could satisfy some sort of oedipal complex regarding the man who tried to kill his daddy (not to mention was sitting on a lot of valuable oil that haliburton and co. couln't access but really really wanted to). i don't want another vietnam, a goal you seem to be aiming for. are you TRYING to kill off the poor and the noble? good god.
of course, all of these things tie in to the supreme court as well, where we've just been given a sharp reminder that, barring a miracle, may be completely transformed into a scary scary place in the next term...but that's for a post on another day.
sincerely and tearfully,
jessica rane
loyal american, angry patriot
p.s. i hope that a miracle occurs and all those provisional and absentee ballots in ohio are for john kerry. and i hope that you can be as gracious in defeat as you claim to be in victory. it would be interesting to see you react to winning the popular vote but losing the electoral college.
p.p.s. any EU citizens looking for a smart, lovely, liberal, american wife, i may know some women who are available.
oh, and also, fuck you. what is WRONG with this country?
[post likely to be edited when no longer intoxicated]
1:15 AM
i think i'm going to have a panic attack. what is wrong with america?
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
1:11 AM
dear God,
please let Kerry win.
thank you,
jessica rane
*****
to the rest of you:
GO VOTE!
