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Friday, August 29, 2003
11:50 PM
i hate living downtown sometimes. i'm sick on several different fronts and really just want to go to sleep. but it being labor day weekend, the last free weekend before classes start, someone in the neighborhood is having a party with bass so loud it carries through my closed windows and over my fans and own music. bastards. i wish the condo residents would get on with the police calling...it's what they're usually good for. it's been a long, fairly unpleasant day and i'd really like it to end.
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
10:48 PM
music: ani difranco, revelling
i feel as if today has consisted mostly of sleep walking. i did lots and talked to lots of people, but i feel largely unaffected by my day, in that numbed sort of way. i'm probably just over-tired.
things on my mind right now:
meredith is leaving in a week. for nearly a year.
erica is likely gone a month from now. i will be roommate-less.
i have a column due this weekend. what was i thinking?
i'm 1/3 through the first book i have to have read for when classes start. sad, to be doing homework before classes start.
i need to buy my books. i can't really afford it.
my sword apparently does exist. do i tell them to resend it, even though i can't really afford it?
my neighbors are nice. however, parking is a point of conflict.
bedtime...i feel vaguely sick and would prefer it didn't progress further than vague, especially not with classes starting in a week.
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
5:16 PM
i am still at work. i don't really want to be, but i don't want to deal with the assistant director bitching at me when he returns on thursday. if i quit this job, it will be because of him. also, it's very hot in the office. this is annoying.
Monday, August 25, 2003
10:49 PM
i don't feel particularly well. i think i'm crashing for the night. vaccines and me don't get along very well...
Saturday, August 23, 2003
12:17 AM
i would like a yellow kitchen, leaning toward a green bedroom, and a coffee with cream shade in the living room. unfortunately, i don't think i'm allowed to paint.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
12:18 AM
anyone need an apartment? i may be out a roommate in a month or so. seriously, if you do and you know me, talk to me about it.
got my first japanese encephalitis shot today. so far no bad reaction, just localized pain. it's amazing to listen to them rattle off medications and disease prevention. also a bit disturbing when they say "and you need to stay in the offices for half an hour after each shot, just to make sure you don't go into anaphylactic shock."
also saw pirates of the caribbean tonight. mmmmmmmmmm......so much pretty man action.
Thursday, August 14, 2003
12:25 PM
this has been, by far, the crappiest vacation i have ever had.
1:12 AM
got my official tech b (heavy) rating today following an hour and a half class spent discussing how to sail in heavy winds. i accidentally did my test out for it last week, when the storm winds blew over us during what was supposed to be a tech a (light) lesson. so i got both ratings in one night, though the heavy rating required a classroom course before it became official and i could go out on blue flag days and move on to the higher boats. i need to spend more time out on the water, get comfortable with it again...a little freaked out from the storm last week, with the bruises it left all over my body still unfaded, i feel okay about that. have declared the fear has to be gone by the time they are.
mari called tonight, which was also good...i needed to talk with her for awhile. it's so strange for her to be so far away when i really need her right now, but it's working so far. she's still fully capable of help even when its pan-pacific.
Monday, August 11, 2003
12:32 PM
i am so the queen of screwing my own life up. i can't even schedule a vacation and make it any good.
Sunday, August 10, 2003
4:19 AM
i have this terrible habit of staying up far too late to finish reading books. but i know i'll still end up awake at 9am.
Saturday, August 09, 2003
12:28 AM
my bruises and strained muscles from the sailing incident are pretty incredible. i'm impressed i didn't notice how much pain i was going to be in, or what pretty shades of purple some swathes of my skin would be changing hue to. war wounds, of a sort, and i'm quite proud of them.
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
11:20 PM
oh my god.
talk sailing. and storms. and capsizing. and recovery. and capsizing. and recovery. and capsizing fucking again. in really big waves and really high winds on your second day in the water.
i am EXHAUSTED. but it was awesome! except for the aching muscles, or even because of them, i feel amazing! now i'm going to bed. after a hot bath. then much sleep. if i can make it to the back.
anyway...omg.
12:29 AM
starting with the end of work on thursday, i had an incredible weekend. the seminar was such a good learning experience and showed me what a wonderful family i've become part of. apparently, i have a knack for this stuff, though i have no one to compare myself with in terms of a learning curve. i felt honored to receive any praise when i still feel like a clumsy beginner surrounded by so much skill. i'm very sad i couldn't make it out to california for the next two weeks, but i'm very happy i was able to train with such a supportive and talented group and that my sensei took enough notice of me to teach me something himself.
saturday night i ended up sleeping out at ridgeway unexpectedly, crashed out on the dojo mats under a blessed quilt. the sky is so clear out there, without light polluting it or the moon shining, that the milky way was visible as i sat on stone and craned my neck to peer up at the sky. mars was red and bright and a shooting star streaked across the band of the galaxy. when it's that quiet and clear, with the insects singing and the lightest breeze, there's something sacred about merely breathing. i could live out there, isolated and quiet and pure.
Saturday, August 02, 2003
4:04 AM
i can't sleep.
