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Tuesday, December 31, 2002
11:20 PM
Monday, 30 Dec 2002, 11:29pm (written then, though it didn't publish.)
mood: lonely
three things learned today:
1. i totaled dan's car.
2. i have muscle damage from said totaling.
3. i probably don't have breast cancer, but i'll go in five weeks from now, just to make sure.
i'm tired. i hurt so badly it's inspired tears. i think it's time to sleep.
Monday, December 30, 2002
4:58 PM
mood: predatory
naked quidditch is so...wrong.
Sunday, December 29, 2002
8:06 PM
mood: lethargic
birthday yesterday. dinner with friends at monty's, then home for cake. nice, quiet, calm.
went to my great grandmother's 90th birthday party today. large groups of family are much easier to deal with when it's short amounts of time. only one comment to drive me crazy. took lots of pictures.
starting to think maybe i did nerve damage on friday. it's numb pain, if that's possible, all along my right side from behind my ear to my hip. i feel nauseous off and on because of it. mostly feeling physically miserable at the moment, so i'm going to shut up now. i wish it was early enough to go to sleep.
Saturday, December 28, 2002
12:07 AM
mood: sore
music: sex in the city
back hurts. neck hurts. got rear-ended while driving d's car today. so sore. hopefully it will be better in the morning, as morning is my birthday. want a working bathtub.
but overall, good laid back day. received best christmas present so far (saw its digital form anyway).
also, blogger is being a pain.
Friday, December 27, 2002
12:40 AM
mood: tired
music: blackalicious, blazing arrow
got home from christmas fine. it was a nice drive, clear and sunny, and until i got close to madison the roads were fairly empty. my car might not look like much, but she can still be fun to drive. the older i get, the more stressful holidays seem to become. don't get me wrong, i love my family, but going home to my own bed is a welcome thing. it was nice to see everyone...there's some ridiculous number like 26 of us at a typical family gathering, which can be overwhelming but there's never a lack of conversation. it'd be nice if there were less of marriage hinting targeted at me, but i suppose i can't do anything about it other than ignoring it.
my birthday is on saturday. i think i want to do a small gathering, so let me know if you're around and want to come.
i hung with betsy & molly tonight. we dyed betsy's hair a new shade of blue/black and watched two movies: bridget jones's diary & amelie. and then i came home and finished o brother where art thou, since they're due back tomorrow. but now, it's bedtime. long past it, even.
Saturday, December 21, 2002
11:33 AM
mood: concerned
the little things are often the most frightening.
Friday, December 20, 2002
11:46 PM
mood: apathetic
first day of winter break. more snowing. work. attempted christmas shopping. vague thoughts of finishing christmas cards. hanging with mari. now nothing.
the weekend? work. two towers again? family breakfast. gift exchange with mere. other stuff i guess.
i'm going to quickly become boring over break if i'm not careful. so whoever is staying around should email me and let me know.
1:36 AM
mood: sleepy
music: pete yorn, music from the morning after
it's snowing out tonight, just that perfect falling white fluff as i drove home from the green room. we had a few drinks and i listened to mari and chris talk about the chilean economy and debating the merits of the taft hartly act (talk and debating are code words for fighting). exams are done and i'm tired and relieved. erin and i went with dan to watch his sword class...fascinating and beautiful and calming. i kind of wish i could move like that, the steady flow...
i'm in "thinking too much" mode.
we saw lotr last night, which was wonderful. erin and i dressed up, frodo & elf. that was funny enough, but was made even more amusing by the fact that when we were running around (not near the movie theater), people kept yelling out congratulations to me...evidently i looked very bride-like in my long white dress and cape.
Tuesday, December 17, 2002
9:57 AM
mood: annoyed
1 - sleep mode in osX doesn't seem to involve the 'heartbeat' which makes me very sad.
2 - more disturbing, osX may have a sleep mode that involves the heartbeat. after all, each time my computer seems to 'sleep,' it actually freezes completely, so that i have to remove all power sources, press the start button for 30 seconds, and then restart. this is not a good thing.
12:14 AM
mood awake
i have two heroes in the boys and computer world today. first dan, who went through and helped me set up the osX action on my ibook. then chris, who helped me when i called frantic at 10 p.m. because my computer simply refused to turn on.
took my first amendment exam tonight: worst exam essays i've ever ever written. but it's done. one more exam and a paper left. though the paper probably won't be gotten to till later.
god is trying to tell me i'm supposed to be a librarian. travel center is job three deeply revolving around books. i was hired for my experience related to them - i'm to take over the library. crazy.
2 days till the two towers.
Monday, December 16, 2002
6:39 PM
i have installed osX, but failed to make a note of all of my bookmarks. i am lost.
1:41 AM
so, according to the beliefomatic, i'm a unitarian universalist. but i could also be a quaker or a pagan without too much effort. this would be the listing they gave me:
1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Liberal Quakers (97%)
3. Neo-Pagan (93%)
4. Reform Judaism (89%)
5. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (81%)
6. Mahayana Buddhism (80%)
7. Bahá'í Faith (77%)
8. New Age (77%)
9. Secular Humanism (77%)
10. Sikhism (73%)
11. Jainism (68%)
12. Hinduism (60%)
13. New Thought (58%)
14. Theravada Buddhism (58%)
15. Scientology (55%)
16. Orthodox Judaism (54%)
17. Taoism (54%)
18. Islam (52%)
19. Nontheist (47%)
20. Orthodox Quaker (46%)
21. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (33%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (22%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (21%)
24. Eastern Orthodox (19%)
25. Roman Catholic (19%)
26. Seventh Day Adventist (19%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (10%)
allright. back to the studying thing. god do i hate exams.
(original post was made 12 hours ago, but blogger was down.)
Sunday, December 15, 2002
1:17 AM
mood: tense
music: christmas things
so i can bore you...
less than four days till lord of the rings. and five days until i'm done with exams.
woke up late, went to work. took a break with nancy and ended up at the capitol listening to tubas play christmas carols. i was entertained, and not in the laughing way i assumed. they were actually really good.
came home, and the mail brought both my new economist subscription (yay!) and a letter from american family trying to make me pay $740 in damages (poo). this i will forward to my insurance company. i looked at the police report (included) and the other girl lied. she was not stopped. if she was, i'd have damaged my car (which i didn't). also, i wouldn't have started to drive if she hadn't. that slipped me into a bad mood.
after studying, we finished decorating the tree, which looks even lovelier. this has reverted me to a better mood.
however, i managed to make erin cry by telling her there were bodies buried under her floor. i am a terrible roommate.
Friday, December 13, 2002
10:13 PM
guess who got hired at the travel center.
12:04 PM
mood: hopeful
ugh. job interviews are stressful. now, i've got about five hours to wait till i find out if they're hiring me or not. scary. very scary. think good thoughts for me!
on a side note, when erin and i are in 'strange' mode, we get progressively weirder if there's an audience.
to bookworks ho!
Thursday, December 12, 2002
10:57 PM
back up. finally.
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
11:50 PM
mood: bouncy
music: avril lavigne, complicated
"why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?"
erin came home tonight and we put on ties and proceeded to mock avril lavigne by jumping around and singing too loud to the mp3.
the things we do when trying to avoid studying.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
11:25 PM
mood: annoyed
for fuck's sake, both of my main email addresses are down.
6:18 PM
addendum:
my computer ran out of battery power, so i ran home and learned two things.
1) agog.net is down because we did not renew the domain. that must be taken care of tonight.
2) i got a call back for an interview from the travel center within an hour of dropping the application off. cool. wish me luck
3:52 PM
mood: creative
turned in application at the travel center. *crosses fingers*
sent comments to howard. bad ones though. my focus is gone at the moment. caffeine is bad, but sometimes necessary to stay awake.
working on another rewrite. zimmerman is forcing me to submit one of my fiction pieces to a publication. this frightens me. also, i resent being forced to submit without feeling prepared.
agog.net is down.
umm...i have tickets to the opening day of the two towers. it's in the middle of exams, but i don't care. me = very excited. we could get cloaks, but then i'd be posing.
all right, enough distraction. back to working.
9:09 AM
mood: jittery
get your war on is pretty awesome.
so much to do. back to the working.
Sunday, December 08, 2002
11:47 PM
mood: stressed
music: ben folds, bizarre christmas incident
my ability to procrastinate is getting me in some trouble this coming week or so. lots of stress over readings unfinished and papers unwritten and exams to be taken. i have no one to blame but myself, but i'm still going to occasionally freak out on innocent bystanders. tomorrow morning, which was to be devoted to reconfiguring spy fiction into a hint of a first chapter, has now become full of other things i'd forgotten scheduling for myself (most of them being appointments i shouldn't cancel).
sleep...i miss you already.
technically only 11 more days to go in the semester. i can't decide if i'm screwed, or if i'm okay. wish me luck.
Friday, December 06, 2002
8:58 AM
hmm...i can't help it. quizes are silly and addicting.
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Thursday, December 05, 2002
12:19 AM
mood: restless
music: eddie from ohio
after watching too much sex in the city instead of doing homework, ma and i have decided we need to move to new york and go to grad school.
also, i need to graduate. soon. i think i may be able to get out by next december. then i'll probably run away to europe for a few months.
Wednesday, December 04, 2002
12:19 AM
mood: calm
music: the donnas, spend the night
"make it brilliant."
that was howard's response when discussing my feminist theory paper, and how i have no ideas at the moment. of course, we were just talking in passing on the hill, so i can't expect an in-depth discussion. it makes me smile.
also went and hung out with stephen for a bit, got my very own copy of "the tenacity of the cockroach," the a.v. club's book which comes out next tuesday. it's pretty fab. go buy one.
Monday, December 02, 2002
11:14 PM
mood: distracted
music: coldplay, rush of blood to the head
talking to mt tonight, about life and other disasters.
he said, "you're amazing strong jessica. it blows me away sometimes."
i denied it initially, but i guess he's right. i do what i need to keep me sane and healthy, even when it hurts. sometimes i'm afraid it makes me seem cold, but i don't know what else to do. protecting yourself is the most basic instinct we have. i just wonder if i go about it in the right way.
12:04 AM
went to chris's parents' for tree decorating and dinner. it was nice.
but i've had a headache all day and now i've got a migraine starting. i'm going to take some tylenol pm before i can't keep the pills down and knock myself out for the night.
and thank you. you know who you are.
