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Thursday, October 31, 2002
1:02 PM
when i was a freshman, i shared my notes with a girl from my journalism class. she was undergoing chemotherapy for ovarian cancer and wasn't always well enough to make it in. she was in her mid-twenties, beautiful, driven, and i was just eighteen and didn't know what to say most of the time as i tried desperately hard to be independent and adult. i never saw her again after that, not even in passing. we were both on the j school track and i wasn't going to leave it for another few semesters, so i think i would have. i wonder what happened to her. i don't know what made me think of her today, but i hope she made it through okay.
on a slightly different note, i need to state that wisconsin needs macallum (i'm sure i'm spelling it wrong) back in office about as much as we need a nuclear blast to take out the capital. if that man wins office, everybody's screwed.
mood: awake
music: blackalicious, blazing arrow
1:00 AM
what's amazing is the number of emails i get from crushlink and its ilk. i find it amusing and annoying.
1) anyone who's attracted to me needs to be able to simply tell me that. via the internet is not the way to go.
2) i refuse to submit anyone's email address to that thing simply to find out who it is. that's cruel and unusual punishment.
have done nothing but homework & studying all day today. i'm still nervous about the first amendment exam. i know i'm going to get there and forget an important court case.
also, have my generic "hot girl" halloween outfit going on. i couldn't find what i needed to be a gangster's moll. maybe next year.
mood: exhausted
music: low
Sunday, October 27, 2002
11:20 PM
s&k are now officially joined in the eyes of god and country, and it made me all emotional. she looked absolutely lovely, he was handsome, it was amazing. the first real wedding i've been at since i've been an adult (e&j don't quite count, as there was no 'wedding' only a reception), and surrounded by people i've known throughout my college career, it made me really happy. more importantly, it was a beautiful day for the two of them. all my love to them.
but now i've driven home from chicago and it's time to sleep.
mood: happy
music: iron & wine
Thursday, October 24, 2002
11:52 PM
this is awesome.
"Napoleon is weeping in a carnival saloon"
Which Strange Little Girl would you be?
(This quiz made while Angel was procrastinating her ass off.)
i really need to stop taking these quizzes. if they are to be believed, i am overly angsty and melancholy, as my results invariably indicate that is so.
another good day. really good.
mood: quiet
music: the donnas, stay the night
Wednesday, October 23, 2002
12:25 AM
i know i'm ridiculous because of it, but buffy makes me so happy and so sad at the same time.
today was a great day. i woke up early, played guitar, hung out at espresso royale for a while before class, stayed awake with no problems in said class (i've got selective narcolepsy when it comes to some of my lectures, i swear), got lunch with michael, bought frou frou and the new donna's cds, got my reading done, enjoyed first amendment lecture, did more studying, went to our feminist theory seminar, then buffy watching. i just feel really efficient and happy. i felt like me today, for the first time in awhile. it was nice.
mood: artistic
music: frou frou, details
Monday, October 21, 2002
12:32 AM
it's been a good weekend. ten percent dance friday night with mc and her flaming boys, quiet work/study saturday, family today. nothing exciting, just...nice. being boring is okay every once in awhile.
what's your cowboy bebop theme song?
Thursday, October 17, 2002
6:24 PM
"We believe that as people living in the United States it is our responsibility to resist the injustices done by our government, in our names. Not in our name will you wage endless war. There can be no more deaths, no more transfusions of blood for oil. Not in our name will you invade countries, bomb civilians, kill more children, letting history take its course over the graves of the nameless. Not in our name will you erode the very freedoms you have claimed to fight for. Not by our hands will we supply weapons and funding for the annihilation of families on foreign soil. Not by our mouths will we let fear silence us. Not by our hearts will we allow whole peoples or countries to be deemed evil. Not by our will and Not in our name. We pledge resistance. We pledge alliance with those who have come under attack for voicing opposition to the war or for their religion or ethnicity. We pledge to make common cause with the people of the world to bring about justice, freedom and peace. Another world is possible and we pledge to make it real."
www.notinourname.net
maybe i'm an idealist. but we've got to try, don't we?
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
12:41 AM
"Hence the fact that over the centuries it [sex] has become more important than our soul, more important almost than our life...The Faustian pact, whose temptation has been instilled in us by the deployment of sexuality, is now as follows: to exchange life in its entirety for sex itself, for the truth and the sovereignty of sex. Sex is worth dying for. It is in this (strictly historical) sense that sex is indeed imbued with the death instinct. When a long while ago the West discovered love, it bestowed on it a value high enough to make death acceptable; nowadays it is sex that claims this equivalence, the highest of all." - Michel Foucault, The History of Sexuality
and people wonder how i end up depressed.
but good day: took my first real exam since last december, was really worried about it. totally needless, the perfect essay question, did a great job. atleast i think so. went and read part of discipline and punish while eating lunch (mistake to read the intro while trying to consume food, descriptions of old-fashioned torture executions, icky). have been in total stress mode, unhealthfully so. didn't go away today, exactly, but the taking the exam gave me breathing room for a bit. survived on caffeine. bad eating habits resurfacing, but fighting them. sleep now.
mood: twitchy
music: rhett miller, the instigator
Monday, October 14, 2002
12:13 AM
the strokes were wonderful. mmm, pretty boys with guitars. the crowd was...mostly not pleasant. too many clueless people wearing the band's shirts. they threw bottles at both opening acts. they were violently opposed to har mar superstar, booing and throwing everything in sight at him (which apparently included used tampons). no appreciation of irony whatsoever. body surfing ensued when the strokes got on stage. a few new songs. the most adorable ten year olds i've ever seen: they want to be the band. they had the hair, the clothes, it was so cute. overall, it was a good thing.
mood: tired
music: the flaming lips, yoshimi battles the pink robots
Sunday, October 13, 2002
12:51 AM
mmm...pretty rock star boys with guitars. such a good place right now. going to sleep, before it all evaporates.
mood: peaceful
music: the strokes
Tuesday, October 08, 2002
10:21 AM
i am so sick of being on an even keel and then having something flare up that shouldn't matter anymore and making me cry. i am so tired of hurting.
